The title may give you a hint to what im about to talk about. Ofcourse its a very sensitive matter. I know that's also been ages seen this whole fiasco started. So let me start from the beginning.
(READ TILL THE END TRUST ME)
It all starts with a subscribe button. You press it and future happens. You can subscribe to anyone on this wonderfull site called youtube and this amazing age created this thing called video blogging (vlogging). Which created this line of jobs called youtubers. These youtubers are adored by many and majority no matter the content are young teenage boys and girls or even younger.I look on youtube and i see young kids with channels making singing videos or vlogs and its adorable, or families making videos of their lives, COMPLETE. What i have just said is the good side of youtube.
THEN, there is the side where there are videos you have to watch with caution, the videos that creep you out and this is not what im talking about......
I'm talking a completely different side where there are "wonderfull" "talented" people making vlogs and videos and we see 1 video a week of them. Then their real life opens up and we are in confusion. We are lost with wonder? Who are we watching?!
This is the dangerous side to it the side that gives you chills. Its like you've been watching someone for so long and now it feels like a relationship and suddenly you find out that everything was a lie. Everything was created from the start. IT WAS NEVER REAL! This is the dark side. You listen and aspire to be like these people who you think you know but in reality you have no idea who the fuck you are listening to, watching, understanding and looking up to. It's almost like you meet a date and you only see them once a week and suddenly you wanna see them more and when you do. They are literally not the same person.
If you don't know already im talking about Sam Pepper. Like i looked up to this dude majority of my life. He was like amazing to me. I thought he was perfect. And that's the main problem, when we see these famous people we automatically assume that this is the guy or girl for me. This person is the best. They are amazing. When in reality we don't see much but the scripted part of them. Like when i sing i turn into a totally different person. This can be with anyone like actors/actresses. We only see the film part of them yet we want to be like them we want to worship live and breathe like them and thats perfectly normal. Its human nature. I think we should carry on. Life is too short to live in regrets. So if you don't know who he is and what happened there are tonnes more stories on him. Just type his name on google and youtube and i gurantee you'll find something. "By the way, If you ever meet sam pepper. I beg of you, kick him really hard in the balls. Maybe then he'll realise how much pain he's caused many". -sallie you can quote me on that.
Wednesday 1 October 2014
Tuesday 6 May 2014
What I want to be and who I am
What I want to be and who I am
so who am i? I am a creative average as fuck human. I try really hard to be above average in maths, science or English but i am always average. The only time i am above average is when i am doing Drama or ART or Music or Humanities (sometimes). I am just bang on creative and i can't study maths. It's not like it's hard for me and it mentally hurts me. It's just that no matter how hard i work no matter how hard i try i can never get above average and it kills me.
I know, i have always know i wanted to be an actress always. I just always thought it was impossible so i picked the more possible thing. Writing. There is this thing with me that i can't control is that once i find out how impossible something is i pick something that has a connection to it and is easier to become. It's basically when people say they do dancing because it's the closest thing to flying. It's dumb because you always say that it's a billion in one chance of being an actress but why can't i be that one?Am i just not good enough? Or am i holding myself back because i know how hard it's going to be.
Anyways the only thing is i'm pulling all the negativity behind and 2014 has been a fresh start. I'll always be glad for 2013 but i have grown in strength and body and mind. This year i have made goals, that by the end of 2015 i would have achieved. No more being afraid, no more wondering what people would think about me. NO MORE LISTENING!
so who am i? I am a creative average as fuck human. I try really hard to be above average in maths, science or English but i am always average. The only time i am above average is when i am doing Drama or ART or Music or Humanities (sometimes). I am just bang on creative and i can't study maths. It's not like it's hard for me and it mentally hurts me. It's just that no matter how hard i work no matter how hard i try i can never get above average and it kills me.
I know, i have always know i wanted to be an actress always. I just always thought it was impossible so i picked the more possible thing. Writing. There is this thing with me that i can't control is that once i find out how impossible something is i pick something that has a connection to it and is easier to become. It's basically when people say they do dancing because it's the closest thing to flying. It's dumb because you always say that it's a billion in one chance of being an actress but why can't i be that one?Am i just not good enough? Or am i holding myself back because i know how hard it's going to be.
Anyways the only thing is i'm pulling all the negativity behind and 2014 has been a fresh start. I'll always be glad for 2013 but i have grown in strength and body and mind. This year i have made goals, that by the end of 2015 i would have achieved. No more being afraid, no more wondering what people would think about me. NO MORE LISTENING!
Friday 25 April 2014
Circle Of Life
okay so life has been confusing lately... things have been going on and life is normal. i try to think of life is it as people say?
you have been lied to!!!!! i'm going to tell you what life really is and the outcomes.
Life is and on going circle. let me explain.
The circle starts in Kindergarten, nursery or whatever you call baby school.
Every sing person is friends or in some cases everyone makes fun of this one girl but that doesn't matter!
then you end up in grades or years or classes
this is from the 1st to either the end of middle school or the end of year 4
everyone is friends and people don't care really about your looks and they love you for who you are!
then it's the year when everything falls apart... cliques starts to make, girls turn bitchy, guys start to see themselves as hotter or uglier.
NO ONE CAN BE TRUSTED!!!!!!!!1
you could find there best friends! let's give them names maybe Emily, kate and Rian. these girls have been friends forever. but things change Emily and kate talk about Rian behind her back and then kate tells rian and then Rian and Kate talk about Emily and then Emily and Rian talk about kate. then they all fail.
they go to secondary or high school and they completly fall apart. Emily joins the populars, Rian becomes one of the misfits and Kate becomes a sex obsessed bitch!
Do you see what happend here?
they don't talk ever after that.
Back to the circle of life
the cliques
there is quite a few but here are mains follow along
there misfits- a mix of people who are so average. They don't care about sexuality, gender and are genually nice people and care about each others feelings. they are probably the most populars but they aren't treated as one. they have fights but they fix their mistakes often.
Popular- they are the popular within the year. they wear a little make up to cover up maybe spots or something and wear really short skirts. They normally have straight as fuck hair and they are generally beautiful. some are nice and some are mean. they normally stick to their groups and don't like to be sociable with the misfits. The mean part of the pops constantly talk about each other behind their backs they pick on each other about the smallest things and act like just bitches. the nice part don't socialize with others outside the clique but normally give a casual wave to the other cliques.
the loners- they always no offence have socializing problems and like to stick by themselves. this normally goes throughout the years. The name is pretty ironic because they aren't really loners if they spend time with each others. they normally ignore everyone else and like to stick to themselves. The only people they could maybe talk to but rarely are nerds and geeks with the exeptions of misfits.
Nerds and Geeks- They mix quite alot with the misfits. this could be so much mix but just keep in mind that it will never be pops! there could be Rock Band Geeks eg me! or Bang geeks (obsessed with 1D) it's quite a few mixes and/or could be the Geeks who are smart and so good at maths english and science but not creative only the lucky are.
those are some of the most popular and well known cliques. back to the circle of life.
afterwards the popular have slacked of work and the misfits have work so hard but are still average. the Nerds and Geeks are still getting straight A's. it gets to the last years and there are important tests coming up.
Test Results
Nerds and Geeks- PASS WITH FLYING CARS
Nice Pops-PASS JUST SLIGHTLY
Mean Pops-FAIL BUT STILL GET GIFTS FROM PARENTS OR END UP PREGNANT AT HOME DOING NIGHT SCHOOL!!!
Misfits-Pass but with C's or B and some get A's A*
Loners?- we will never know
So what does this tell you? Pick your cliques carefully because a clique you might pick might have a big difference to what happens in the future. Ok now i'll tell you what happens next
Nerds N Geeks- Become Scientists, Doctors, Mathematicians, Lawyers and i don't know something smart?
Mean Pops- Pregnant and working at home, in the streets asking for money, in a one bedroom apartment with no money trying so hard to find a proper job or dead from std's aids or something
Nice Pops- Medical schools or Practising Nurse. University or McDonald's because they kinda slacked off.
so just pick your groups carefully as you might waste the times for a better future.
Just as the famous people! Most were bullied or picked on when they were younger and the channeled their anger and lived their lives.
you have been lied to!!!!! i'm going to tell you what life really is and the outcomes.
Life is and on going circle. let me explain.
The circle starts in Kindergarten, nursery or whatever you call baby school.
Every sing person is friends or in some cases everyone makes fun of this one girl but that doesn't matter!
then you end up in grades or years or classes
this is from the 1st to either the end of middle school or the end of year 4
everyone is friends and people don't care really about your looks and they love you for who you are!
then it's the year when everything falls apart... cliques starts to make, girls turn bitchy, guys start to see themselves as hotter or uglier.
NO ONE CAN BE TRUSTED!!!!!!!!1
you could find there best friends! let's give them names maybe Emily, kate and Rian. these girls have been friends forever. but things change Emily and kate talk about Rian behind her back and then kate tells rian and then Rian and Kate talk about Emily and then Emily and Rian talk about kate. then they all fail.
they go to secondary or high school and they completly fall apart. Emily joins the populars, Rian becomes one of the misfits and Kate becomes a sex obsessed bitch!
Do you see what happend here?
they don't talk ever after that.
Back to the circle of life
the cliques
there is quite a few but here are mains follow along
there misfits- a mix of people who are so average. They don't care about sexuality, gender and are genually nice people and care about each others feelings. they are probably the most populars but they aren't treated as one. they have fights but they fix their mistakes often.
Popular- they are the popular within the year. they wear a little make up to cover up maybe spots or something and wear really short skirts. They normally have straight as fuck hair and they are generally beautiful. some are nice and some are mean. they normally stick to their groups and don't like to be sociable with the misfits. The mean part of the pops constantly talk about each other behind their backs they pick on each other about the smallest things and act like just bitches. the nice part don't socialize with others outside the clique but normally give a casual wave to the other cliques.
the loners- they always no offence have socializing problems and like to stick by themselves. this normally goes throughout the years. The name is pretty ironic because they aren't really loners if they spend time with each others. they normally ignore everyone else and like to stick to themselves. The only people they could maybe talk to but rarely are nerds and geeks with the exeptions of misfits.
Nerds and Geeks- They mix quite alot with the misfits. this could be so much mix but just keep in mind that it will never be pops! there could be Rock Band Geeks eg me! or Bang geeks (obsessed with 1D) it's quite a few mixes and/or could be the Geeks who are smart and so good at maths english and science but not creative only the lucky are.
those are some of the most popular and well known cliques. back to the circle of life.
afterwards the popular have slacked of work and the misfits have work so hard but are still average. the Nerds and Geeks are still getting straight A's. it gets to the last years and there are important tests coming up.
Test Results
Nerds and Geeks- PASS WITH FLYING CARS
Nice Pops-PASS JUST SLIGHTLY
Mean Pops-FAIL BUT STILL GET GIFTS FROM PARENTS OR END UP PREGNANT AT HOME DOING NIGHT SCHOOL!!!
Misfits-Pass but with C's or B and some get A's A*
Loners?- we will never know
So what does this tell you? Pick your cliques carefully because a clique you might pick might have a big difference to what happens in the future. Ok now i'll tell you what happens next
Nerds N Geeks- Become Scientists, Doctors, Mathematicians, Lawyers and i don't know something smart?
Mean Pops- Pregnant and working at home, in the streets asking for money, in a one bedroom apartment with no money trying so hard to find a proper job or dead from std's aids or something
Nice Pops- Medical schools or Practising Nurse. University or McDonald's because they kinda slacked off.
so just pick your groups carefully as you might waste the times for a better future.
Just as the famous people! Most were bullied or picked on when they were younger and the channeled their anger and lived their lives.
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