Domestic Abuse

(This is a touchy subject so i'll try to be as formal as i can so as not not offend anyone reading)

There has been many debates around the world about what domestic abuse is and when is it a crime.

In the Uk its is domestic abuse if

You have been hit – Physical Abuse

You have been called names and treated badly and mean – Emotional Abuse

You have been forced into sexual acts which is anything from kissing to sending pictures by force or full on bondage also including oral – Sexaul Abuse/ Rape

In this matters it doesn’t matter whether your close or the woman/man is your friend it is illegal and can have jail time depending on the judge or jury.

In many countries around the world people are fighting to stop violence in homes, as they are most hardest cases to solve or help as they are on a deep personal level.

In Cambodia women are fighting for their rights because the police can’t do anything about it unless the woman bleeds and I say that because in Cambodia there is more likely to be a woman treated in Domestic Abuse than a man. It is actually quite rare for a man to be in the situation but it does happen.

We need to end this but it doesn't start big it starts with one person speaking up for their rights.

I am scared,

I really am! Everything in my life is not the best right now and i honestly know i'm scared. I wish i could open up on this post and say my entire life story but not know. I haven't accomplished  anything!!  I feel like im never gonna accomplish anything and what scares me more is not even being able to try.

I feel cold, I feel like i could break at any point of time. Sometimes i am in a lesson and i'm thinking about screaming like what if i just screamed right now and cried so hard. Would anyone hold me? Would anyone make me feel better? Or would they laugh and laugh as i cry harder and harder. There's moments where i have nearly screamed and all i could here was a tiny yelp.

It's like there's something inside me that's stopping me.

Princess Boy

This is the story of one beautiful girl. A girl you wouldn't expect to see. A different kind of girl. This girl was special she stood out more. She was beautiful. She looked like this picture.

As you can see she's not you average princess. She's not even a she, that's why it's so precious. This is a boy called Joshua Ryan Alcorn. He is a normal boy from a normal town but he's just that extra bit extraordinary he's transgender ed. I guess this is the saddest story you can ever hear. A beautiful boy who just had one dream to be a girl was bullied, traumatised and victimised by her own parents because he had this one dream because she didn't fit in his own skin, because "there was no way out." 

He was very unhappy as you can see and so one day he wrote the end of his story he finished a book which wasn't meant to be him to write. He wrote his suicide letter. This is what it said.....

If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue.

Please don't be sad, it's for the better. The life I would've lived isn't worth living in… because I'm transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy's body, and I've felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally "boyish" things to try to fit in.

When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn't make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don't tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don't ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won't do anything but make them hate them self. That's exactly what it did to me.

My mom started taking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help.

When I was 16 I realized that my parents would never come around, and that I would have to wait until I was 18 to start any sort of transitioning treatment, which absolutely broke my heart. The longer you wait, the harder it is to transition. I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn't receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep.

Alcorn apparently believed she'd never be able to transition successfully. She concludes:

After a summer of having almost no friends plus the weight of having to think about college, save money for moving out, keep my grades up, go to church each week and feel like shit because everyone there is against everything I live for, I have decided I've had enough. I'm never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. I'm never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. I'm never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. I'm never going to have enough love to satisfy me. I'm never going to find a man who loves me. I'm never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. There's no winning. There's no way out. I'm sad enough already, I don't need my life to get any worse. People say "it gets better" but that isn't true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse.

That's the gist of it, that's why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that's not a good enough reason for you, it's good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don't give a shit which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren't treated the way I was, they're treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say "that's fucked up" and fix it. Fix society. Please.

 it pains me to read this, it pains me that he walked in front of a truck and killed himself. I pains me that this beautiful story has a disgusting and painful ending. It makes me feel sick that this was the end of him that his story, the story of the princess boy has ended in tears and heartbreak.
Change society as he said.

Some people posted these tweets saying

ⓙⓤⓛⓘⓐ will remember @Unit0053

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From someones tumblr. I can't stop crying: -

7:54 AM - 30 Dec 2014

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something @antimytheme

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Cis people: please understand that the death of #LeelahAlcorn is not a statistical outlier. This story is common, cruel, and preventable.

1:07 PM - 30 Dec 2014

Who are we really watching?!!?!

The title may give you a hint to what im about to talk about. Ofcourse its a very sensitive matter. I know that's also been ages seen this whole fiasco started. So let me start from the beginning.

(READ TILL THE END TRUST ME)

It all starts with a subscribe button. You press it and future happens. You can subscribe to anyone on this wonderfull site called youtube and this amazing age created this thing called video blogging (vlogging). Which created this line of jobs called youtubers. These youtubers are adored by many and majority no matter the content are young teenage boys and girls or even younger.I look on youtube and i see young kids with channels making singing videos or vlogs and its adorable, or families making videos of their lives, COMPLETE. What i have just said is the good side of youtube.

THEN, there is the side where there are videos you have to watch with caution, the videos that creep you out and this is not what im talking about......

I'm talking a completely different side where there are "wonderfull" "talented" people making vlogs and videos and we see 1 video a week of them. Then their real life opens up and we are in confusion. We are lost with wonder? Who are we watching?!

This is the dangerous side to it the side that gives you chills. Its like you've been watching someone for so long and now it feels like a relationship and suddenly you find out that everything was a lie. Everything was created from the start. IT WAS NEVER REAL! This is the dark side. You listen and aspire to be like these people who you think you know but in reality you have no idea who the fuck you are listening to, watching, understanding and looking up to. It's almost like you meet a date and you only see them once a week and suddenly you wanna see them more and when you do. They are literally not the same person.

If you don't know already im talking about Sam Pepper. Like i looked up to this dude majority of my life. He was like amazing to me. I thought he was perfect. And that's the main problem, when we see these famous people we automatically assume that this is the guy or girl for me. This person is the best. They are amazing. When in reality we don't see much but the scripted part of them. Like when i sing i turn into a totally different person. This can be with anyone like actors/actresses. We only see the film part of them yet we want to be like them we want to worship live and breathe like them and thats perfectly normal. Its human nature. I think we should carry on. Life is too short to live in regrets. So if you don't know who he is and what happened there are tonnes more stories on him. Just type his name on google and youtube and i gurantee you'll find something. "By the way, If you ever meet sam pepper. I beg of you, kick him really hard in the balls. Maybe then he'll realise how much pain he's caused many". -sallie you can quote me on that.

What I want to be and who I am

What I want to be and who I am

so who am i? I am a creative average as fuck human. I try really hard to be above average in maths, science or English but i am always average. The only time i am above average is when i am doing Drama or ART or Music or Humanities (sometimes). I am just bang on creative and i can't study maths. It's not like it's hard for me and it mentally hurts me. It's just that no matter how hard i work no matter how hard i try i can never get above average and it kills me.


I know, i have always know i wanted to be an actress always. I just always thought it was impossible so i picked the more possible thing. Writing. There is this thing with me that i can't control is that once i find out how impossible something is  i pick something that has a connection to it and is easier to become. It's basically when people say they do dancing because it's the closest thing to flying. It's dumb because you always say that it's a billion in one chance of being an actress but why can't i be that one?Am i just not good enough? Or am i holding myself back because i know how hard it's going to be.

Anyways the only thing is i'm pulling all the negativity behind and 2014 has been a fresh start. I'll always be glad for 2013 but i have grown in strength and body and mind. This year i have made goals, that by the end of 2015 i would have achieved. No more being afraid, no more wondering what people would think about me. NO MORE LISTENING!

Circle Of Life

okay so life has been confusing lately... things have been going on and life is normal. i try to think of life is it as people say?

you have been lied to!!!!! i'm going to tell you what life really is and the outcomes.

Life is and on going circle. let me explain.

The circle starts in Kindergarten, nursery or whatever you call baby school.
Every sing person is friends or in some cases everyone makes fun of this one girl but that doesn't matter!

then you end up in grades or years or classes

this is from the 1st  to either the end of middle school or the end of year 4

everyone is friends and people don't care really about your looks and they love you for who you are!

then it's the year when everything falls apart... cliques starts to make, girls turn bitchy, guys start to see themselves as hotter or uglier.

NO ONE CAN BE TRUSTED!!!!!!!!1

you could find there best friends! let's give them names maybe Emily, kate and Rian. these girls have been friends forever. but things change Emily and kate talk about Rian behind her back and then kate tells rian and then Rian and Kate talk about Emily and then Emily and Rian talk about kate. then they all fail.

they go to secondary or high school and  they completly fall apart. Emily joins the populars, Rian becomes one of the misfits and Kate becomes a sex obsessed bitch!

Do you see what happend here?

they don't talk ever after that.

Back to the circle of life

the cliques

there is quite a few but here are mains follow along

there misfits- a mix of people who are so average. They don't care about sexuality, gender and are genually nice people and care about each others feelings. they are probably the most populars but they aren't treated as one. they have fights but they fix their mistakes often.

Popular- they are the popular within the year. they wear a little make up to cover up maybe spots or something and wear really short skirts. They normally have straight as fuck hair and they are generally beautiful. some are nice and some are mean. they normally stick to their groups and don't like to be sociable with the misfits. The mean part of the pops constantly talk about each other behind their backs they pick on each other about the smallest things and act like just bitches. the nice part don't socialize with others outside the clique but normally give a casual wave to the other cliques.

the loners- they always no offence have socializing problems and like to stick by themselves. this normally goes throughout the years. The name is pretty ironic because they aren't really loners if they spend time with each others. they normally ignore everyone else and like to stick to themselves. The only people they could maybe talk to but rarely are nerds and geeks with the exeptions of misfits.

Nerds and Geeks- They mix quite alot with the misfits. this could be so much mix but just keep in mind that it will never be pops! there could be  Rock Band Geeks eg me! or Bang geeks (obsessed with 1D) it's quite a few mixes and/or could be the Geeks who are smart and so good at maths english and science but not creative only the lucky are.

those are some of the most popular and well known cliques. back to the circle of life.

afterwards the popular have slacked of work and the misfits have work so hard but are still average. the Nerds and Geeks are still getting straight A's. it gets to the last years and there are important tests coming up.
Test Results

Nerds and Geeks- PASS WITH FLYING CARS

Nice Pops-PASS JUST SLIGHTLY

Mean Pops-FAIL BUT STILL GET GIFTS FROM PARENTS OR END UP PREGNANT AT HOME DOING NIGHT SCHOOL!!!

Misfits-Pass but with C's or B and some get A's A*

Loners?- we will never know

So what does this tell you? Pick your cliques carefully because a clique you might pick might have a big difference to what happens in the future. Ok now i'll tell you what happens next

Nerds N Geeks- Become Scientists, Doctors, Mathematicians, Lawyers and i don't know something smart?

Mean Pops-  Pregnant and working at home, in the streets asking for money, in a one bedroom apartment with no money trying so hard to find a proper job or dead from std's aids or something

Nice Pops- Medical schools or Practising Nurse. University or McDonald's because they kinda slacked off.

so just pick your groups carefully as you might waste the times for a better future.


Just as the famous people! Most were bullied or picked on when they were younger and the channeled their anger and lived their lives.

teenager

many people think being a teenager is easy that people always have fun and jump up and down doing weird stuff or playful but to be honest it's sad and terrifying and probably are the worst years of your life. 
they are made to do things they hate they have no freedom and worst of all they are misunderstood in many ways.